Ras

2010-09-19T20:55:00.001-07:00

unknowing...

2010-07-16T01:48:00.000-07:00

HEARTBROKEN, NOW I CANT STOP THINKING ABT HER....

I WANT TOO...

BUT WHEN EVERYTIME I TRY TOO, THE IMAGE WE SPENT TOGETHER ALWAYS APPEARS....

2010-06-17T06:52:00.000-07:00

nowadays, many thought runs through my mind..

things like complicated now...

am i tht afraid of something?

it is like something stop doing tht i want to do...

making me forget...

now, i dont knw wht i want...

i lost, no one notice...

now many thing happen ard me tht i dont knw...

i find out for myself.

i guess a guy like me no need to knw... rite...

2010-06-10T21:27:00.000-07:00

time sure change fast...

or is it to fast for some.>?

2010-05-26T01:14:00.001-07:00

HAD A GREAT DAY!!!!

(i guess)...

2010-04-12T20:15:00.001-07:00

skipped school today w rayLa.
hah. i know, i shouldnt right? but who cares.
blabla.

had breakfast at bedok mac. we ate
breakfast deluxe. yummy(:
rayLa is very greedy when it comes to sugar and creamer :D
how crazy she is, i stil love her(:
(vair much)

y'know what! th connection in mac is very IRRITATING!
skejap ade, skejap tkd.
lu bilang gua skrng? tk ke tuu sungoh irritating?
:D
rayLa is very memilih tau!
she prefer guys who could talk english. (like me) :P
like, whatthehell kan?

after finish eating at mac, we're gng to head to pasir ris.
we're buying shoes. i love her company.
who wouldnt?

im tired! heh. but what to do.
i kept on yawning non-stop.one word: SLEEPY!

2010-03-15T09:11:00.000-07:00

I MISS MY GF!!!

i can't stop thinking about her, it's been quite when she didn't contact...
many things running through my mind seen then...

like wht she doing...
who she with...
is she alrite...

maybe i too worried abt her :'(

...

2010-03-08T21:04:00.000-08:00

I had a both Bad n Good Wkends...
it stressing me out!!!! (*_*)!

but now i still confuse abt my life...
alot of things in my mind tht keep me thinking of the things i need n hve to do.
but when n how?!
"IT'S KILLING ME!!!!"

040210

2010-02-04T04:50:00.000-08:00

hmm...well as usually, i donno wht to say abt today...

let me start abt yesterday...
yesterday was my Graduation day in ITE, not as fun as i thought it would.
at least i graduated from my Nitec course...
now i juz need to wait for my result in my Higher nitec course...

Oya, yesterday was my gerl's mom b'day... i was planning to go meet her cuz i brought her mom a small gives but i didn't get to...
she keep herself slient for a few days now, i donno y...
i miss her a kinda worried abt her...
alot of negative thoughts came to me, but i try not to think abt it too much...

but now, i hve my own problem...
up till now i couldn't get a job, my mom kinda complain alot abt this...
i been slacking at home for a few days now. my mind is ina stress state now...
i think tomoro i go out to pasir ris or east cost pk to relax myself.

now i feel like i'm alone in this confusing world of mine...
n feel like no one could be there beside me now a days..
I got a feeling tht some of the ppl i know is slowly drifting away...
y is this happening...

i will nvr know...
"now my life took another step forward w/o me realizing it"

040210

2010-02-04T04:45:00.000-08:00

hmm...well as usually, i donno wht to say abt today...

let me start abt yesterday...
yesterday was my Graduation day in ITE, not as fun as i thought it would.
at least i graduated from my Nitec course...
now i juz need to wait for my result in my Higher nitec course...

Oya, yesterday was my gerl's mom b'day... i was planning to go meet her cuz i brought
her mom a small gives but i didn't get to...
she keep herself slient for a few days now, i donno y...
i miss her a kinda worried abt her...
alot of negative thoughts came to me, but i try not to think abt it too much...

but now, i hve my own problem...
up till now i couldn't get a job, my mom kinda complain alot abt this...
i been slacking at home for a few days now. my mind is ina stress state now...
i think tomoro i go out to pasir ris or east cost pk to relax myself.

now i feel like i'm alone in this confusing world of mine...
n feel like no one could be there beside me now a days..
I got a feeling tht some of the ppl i know is slowly drifting away...
y is this happening...

i will nvr know...
"now my life took another step forward w/o me realizing it"

260110

2010-01-26T05:18:00.000-08:00

hmm..
wht shld i say abt today...?

well.. yesterday i had some fun w my gerl n her sis...
but, it kinda last min meeting tht time...(~_~)..

i accompany her n her sis to polyclinic, it do take some time b4 it was her sis turn..
then we went for breakfast at Mcdonald, tht time was kinda fun...
we talk abt ghost n staff..
we watch movie 'The Spy Next Door'...
it was a great show!..

after the show... we sat by the beach at Pasir Ris pk for an hour or so b4 i accompany them bck home. When on our way to bedok, i notices tht my gerl body is getting hot...she caught a fever, hope she ok now... =( after i accompany them near their blk i then walk ard the 'pasar mlm' there, to see the things tht sells there...
i took a ride home in a suttle bus to Giant...
After i reach Giant, my mom call n ask where i am...
when she knws i'm, she told me to wait, cuz she on her way to giant as well...she wanted to carry somethings...(~_~) so i wait 4 her at courts...

tht's all i could say abt yesterday...

today, nothing much...
i went out for a while, accompany my mom to tam...then i when home cuz my head is getting hot... (u_u)

but i juz hope my gerl is feeling better...

kinda weird day...

2010-01-23T05:00:00.000-08:00

hmm... i juz wanna say tht today is kinda tried n kinda waste of time...

today i shld hve a class, but i didn't knw tht today class shld hve postpone to nxt wk!!!
(waste time i rush myself down there... ~_~)
then after tht, i walk bck to the nearest inter to take a ride bck home. Suddenly i get a call from wan. He then ask to meet ip. i say ok, cuz i hve nth else to do this on hold day...(u_u)
i met him outside bedok library. We went kfc to hve our lunch, we sat there for an hour or so.
Then we plan to walk to tam mall, it was a long walk i may say...

it was long a tired day i may say......

but, i miss my yg... =( x 100
she did msg me seens this morning...
hope she ok..?!

love eu dear!!!

070110

2010-01-07T03:21:00.000-08:00

hmm...
wht i wanna say abt to day...?
kinda boring i guess...

i'm @ s'pore expo w my mom n my 2 little bro n sis...
now waiting for my mom to pay for the things tht she brought...
(~_~) "BORING!!!!"

i juz can't wht for tomoro...
tomoro will be a great day!!! (i hope...)
i got some plan, i juz hope nothing bad happen..

{most of my plan i made, always not going to plan...u_u... sad sey...}

n tomoro is one of my friend b'day...
lucky it start at 6 in the evening.... cuz i hve some plan
at 3pm, meeting someone... hope she coluld make it...
cuz i miss her... (U_U)

beside, i hve something to give her...
it's not tht great or something, juz hope she accept it...

I CAN'T WAIT FOR TOMORO!!!! (n_n)!!!

missing...

2010-01-04T04:30:00.001-08:00

(in my mind)
nowadays i feel lonely again...
like someone went missing in front of me...
like i felt like i'm missing the other part of me...

i hve something tht i wanna tell her seens the countdown 2010..
but i did get a chance... i hope wht i'm telling her didn't make her think i am
to straight forward or something... it drives my head crazy seens our 2nd meet
on 161209...

"yg... i miss eu tau...
seens eu senyap je i fikir negetive je...
hope to meet eu soon..."
imy!!!
i feel like missing someone...
but it's hard to meet the person when we both are busy w our own things...
(u_u)

131209

2009-12-13T03:56:00.000-08:00

hmm...
today is a good day...

now i at vivo...
juz hanging around alone, trying to relax my mind...
i been here seen 4pm, walking around sitting around..
and i was hoping to see one of my friend here... but, i didn't... s=

later i maybe meeting wan n sod @ bugis, comfirm hangout nye... (~_~)
wan finish his work around 9pm i guess...
sod is on his way there from his home...
maybe i juz relax here for awhile b4 i go...

nowadays there are many thing in my mind...

like...
am i a good person as wht all my friend say?
wht is my goal in life?
am i useful in this life?
wht my wrong in life?
do the things i do is rite?
why when i talk ppl won't listen?
and more............

this thing always in my mind... i can't get it out cz most of it happen to me n make me feel down and sometime crazy!!!!

can i trust my friends... or maybe myself in life?
i juz wanna a life where all the ppl around me happy...
can tht happen?

(u_u)
ok then gtg... comfirm i be late meeting them...
tc

BORING PE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-12-11T04:49:00.000-08:00

hmm... today is kinda boring to me...

i wake up... took m shower... went for my friday prayers...then hang ard tampines..
took a bus there to bugis... get to rest for awhile... went to NLB for internet access....

cuz of my internet access at home not workin...(u_u)
(wht to do...)

...

2009-11-28T05:55:00.000-08:00

hey...

it has been quite awhile i haven't been blogging...
WoW... its been a weird time seens my last post... like after my last heartbreak i contacting w some girls from tagged... i juz contacting to make friends only... some ppl can say i'm flirting... but i try not... the reason is to forget abt the thing i always think abt and help them if they feel lonely of need someone to tell to... (n_n)

btw, i hve step down from my Student Councilor... XD
it was on 11 Nov, and i perform as a back ground singer for my friend Wan... he say he want to perform for the first time and the last time for the sch and SC...

the day after i step down, there's a event tht invited all the ITE collages ard s'pore... when i heard tht, one thng in my mind tht pops out is ...MY EX!!!
she in ITE celmenti... we hven't contact ever seens she attach w her guy... (u_u)
i donno why i still care for her... beside, i care for all my friends, even gal tht i break w... we can still be friends rite? but her guy won't allow i guess...

okok, continue on the tht day...

at the sametime on tht day i was late for my class cuz at the last min... my friend ask me for our FYP works... when on my way to ITE(walking under the MRT track), i saw my EX friend heading towards simei MRT juz Opp me... her friend remember me and say hi to me... on tht time... one thing running through my mind... SHE COMFIRM SAW ME!!! when i look again she isn't tht... so i continue walking... then she her w her bf... i donno she saw me or not...
i juz keep walking... (~_~)

after tht day i get to know a gal... she was friendly and she in the same sch as my little bro... we chat in msn... n she hve a recently love problem... so, i help her by talking to her... we met once at kovan mrt, then we hangout for awhile... after tht i send her home... {I always send the gals i meet home, cuz i 'm the one reponsible for their safety...} i met her only once... but i she hve any problem she juz msg me.. i be care to help... (n_n)

aweek later... i suddenly got a msg from a gal tht i in contact w on fb and tagged in over a year but haven't meet... she say she saw me somewhere... but it wasn't me... (n_n) after tht we keep on msging... the last time i msg her was last year... lame... =)

i hope we can keep in contact... i kinda miss msg her... i donno... (n_n)

2009-10-29T04:24:00.000-07:00

hey...

it's been along time seen i post something... alot of things happen seen then...
During the holiday...
I got to work for 3 days as a F&B line in F1 event in S'pore...
Got to 'Jln Raya' w my primary school friends for the first time after so many years... & also 'Jln Raya' w different grps in the same days.... (~_~)

after sch reopen...
now got to concentrate on my project... but i kinda lazy to do it... (--_--)
beside tht, my heart had juz been thorn into little pieces...
the person tht i care & love didn't think the same way as wht i think abt her...
at the start maybe... but now i guess there's someone in her mind right now...

now i donno wht to think.. i juz heal myself from my ex.. i juz hope she could make me feel better... but i feel worse then ever... (u_u)...
i don't wanna to blame anyone, i always blame myself for wht happen... maybe wht Yat & farahin say abt me is true... i always try to change myself... i can't do it straight away... atleast from secondary sch to ITE i change alittle, tht wht Luqman & some of my friends say...

And now, i still hve some love for her...
i know she won't accept it, cuz she told me many times tht her love is not for me...
i donno why but i can't close my heart like tht... when it's open it's hard to close...
i juz hope & pray thing will change for the best in anyway...
i can't forget the person i love tht easily... (u_u)

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri

2009-09-20T06:05:00.000-07:00

Yeah!!!
It's first day of Raya!!!! (n_n)
[but this time, i don't feel much excitement (u_u)]

today i woke up 7am in the morning... its seems early, but it was alittle bit late. Cuz i hve morning prayers and i hve to get to the mosque by 8.30am...

I went there w my dad n little bro... when we reach there... the area was full w ppl already... lucky us, we found some place to pray... (~_~)

after prayer, we to hve 'OUR' Mcdonald breackfast...
then, i n my little bro follow my dad to Little India to find something...

we reach home almost 12pm... we hve our rest n meal...
(but one thing, my mom did know we hve our breakfast juz now) ;)

by 4+, we went to our first house in Tampines... (my Auntie/grandfather house)
i meet most of my coz there... so, today wasn't tht bad of a day... ;)

2009-09-18T23:59:00.000-07:00

wow... what a tired day today is... i juz reach home from Johor... i break-fast at johor with my sc friends... we break-fast at "Kenny Rogers".. Wan wanted so much to eat there.. cuz in s'pore, Kenny Rogers is no 'Halal'... ;) and tht's one of the reason we went there...

the food there was nice...

we all when shopping after tht...
in the end we all hve a great time...
hope we plan another trip like this, but now we invited
more of our friends to come with... ;)

How i felt... How i feel...

2009-09-15T02:53:00.000-07:00

why am i feeling like i do not belong in this world...

everytime i take a step,
there's always something bad appearing in my heart & mind...
everytime i take a step,
there's always something stupid i do tht makes me feel useless...

nowadays i feel like many ppl in my life are leaving me.
nowadays i feel like many ppl do not notice me.

is there's a meaning to this...
is it something bad coming for me...
or is it juz...me?

wht could this be ?... (~_~)

2009-09-11T23:59:00.000-07:00

Today was a Fun day...
Me n my friends break-fast at geylang!!!
but, we came a bit early... (~_~)

Sedap tk kebab tu... "mmm...."

First Time for everything?

2009-09-10T23:59:00.000-07:00

hey... hey...

today is a...
hmm... i don't know how to say this...
fun? tiring? boring?
i donno...

but today plan was to break fast w luqman n my old schoolmates...
we break fast at a so call restaurant outside Sultan Mosque...
we plan to meet around 6pm at bugis mrt...

but...

i reach there late...(~_~)

i made it there at 7.10, the time tht i hve to break fast...
lucky i made a call to man to help me order something first...
but when i reach there... the order didn't arrive (T_T)
i ran & ran & ran... when it's time to break fast...
MY FOOD HVN"T ARRIVE!!!! (T_T)

man ask me t. check on the order...
it's seems tht the person hve forgoten... (U_U)
so i hve to wait again...
but i manege to break fast w bandung only... (--_--)

after breaking fast, we went for prayers at the near by mosque(sultan mosque)
then, they plan to go shisha...

today is the first time i step in to shisha shop n SMOKE!!!
(~_~) die...die....comfirm die...
but, what i can say... it's a first time for everything...

we been in there for abt 2 hours while waiting for one of our friend from work i guess ...(~_~)...

abt 10.25pm, we move out when went back...
some of them took MRT, for me man n some 2 of our friends took bus 12 to Pasir Ris...

i reach home abt 12+...
it was so call a fun day i guess... (n_n)

First Day of PUASA!!!

2009-08-23T08:00:00.000-07:00

hey...

it's the first day of the Fasting month....

(n_n)!!!

can wht to Fast!!!!

hehe...

today i follow my mom n my little Sis to buy some food for 'Break-Fast'

the place is under a blk near Tampines Ave 5...

When we reach there, the place was pack!!!!

it was almost hard to move around...(~_~)

but we get to buy some for our break-fast...

when we reach home...

we notice tht it gonna be an hour to our break-fast...

so we quickly set the table n prepare the food...

After break-fast...

me, my dad n my little bro preparing ourselves for our nite prayers..

After the prayers i meet sod...

cuz we were planing to help wan with something...

i donno wht... (~_~)

when we meet wan...

he told us tht we need to help his uncle to moved something...

from tampines to yishun n back to tampines....

(T_T) {i didn't expect tht}

so the whole nite we moved things like TV, Refrigerater n more...

n riding wan's uncle truck it was tiring... (u_u)

i was thinking the we could finish the job b4 'sahor'

later i get to knw... tht we 'sahor' together at 'Jln Kayu'

{this is the first time tht we 'sahor' together as friends... hehe!}

we all hve Nasi Lemak...

mmm!!!! Favourtie!!!

after we ate, we went back to Tam n continue w the final few moves...

after we finish wan's uncle sent me n sod home...

we reach home at ant 15mins b4 our 'sahor'..

i got a chance to eat something {little only}

Heartbroken (U_U)

2009-08-20T00:02:00.000-07:00

It's been a long time seen the last blog...

thx to my friend Sulastri, now i got a good & nice background for my blog..
(thanks Su!!!)

alot of things happen seens my last blog...
alot of feeling i felt...
alot of Fun...
alot of pain... (U_U)

for starters...
seen the last time i break w my Ex.. i feel like alone somehow...
i don't know y... even i with my Friends, i still feel alone...
and even i still hve contact w my ex, the feeling hasn't change...

sometime i miss my ex and the time we spent together...
each time i think like tht, i always feel regret n pain...
when i told my friend about this, they easy answer: "Try find a new Girl"
( --_--")
easily said then done... (U_U)

it's not easy to find girls that eu comfortable with...

i contact w some girls... but we juz friends...
i donno what to do now...

but, sometime i like some girls tht i see... but not sure tht they the right once...

then i get to know a girl, she one of my campus-mate...
we are normal friends... she juz join in this year...
starting i don't feel anything different...
but,when she hve a problem i juz listen n try to understand her situation...
n try give her some advise...

then suddenly she started to hve feeling for me... (I didn't know bck then)
one day, she confess to me... tht time i still don't what to ans...
but wht she didn't know tht i also hve some feeling for her... (U_U)
it's hard for me t explain....

and now...
i got a feeling the she found someone...
even if i want to get close to her, i know her heart now is w the person she pick...
how heartbroken n pain i felt... atleast she happy w her life...
but, this heartbroken felt like the same one the i broke w my ex... i don't know y...

The reason i like her it's cuz i feel comfortable w her... it's like i can tell her alot of things tht i keep in me...

but, it's ok... i wht i always feel everyday... tht's y i always walk alone...
it's better for me...

What I alwalys feel everyday... (U_U)

2009-08-19T07:54:00.000-07:00

I feel like the stupidness guy... it's better for me to be alone... i always hurt myself if i don't... in every smile, laughter or happiness i show... there always something behind it... sadness, heartbroken, regret & disappointment... that what i feel everyday...

2009-06-05T20:00:00.000-07:00

hey...

for so long i did do anything to my blog...
seen last year..

this yr had been a stressful n tiring yr...
yesterday i went our w a group of friends, we had plan this outing for about a month ago...
a few of them are going to be busy in this holiday... so yesterday is the only day that most of us free...

Everyone get together at tampines interchange, from there went went straight to bugis...
we had fun walk around there...
Then we took the bus to esplanade... there, we got to watch some performance...

Fun as it sound...
to me most of the trip is like pain in the heart...
some places remind me of something that i don't to remember... (U_U)

but in the end... i had some fun... (n_n)

it was a great n fun day...