thx to my friend Sulastri, now i got a good & nice background for my blog.. (thanks Su!!!)
alot of things happen seens my last blog... alot of feeling i felt... alot of Fun... alot of pain... (U_U)
for starters... seen the last time i break w my Ex.. i feel like alone somehow... i don't know y... even i with my Friends, i still feel alone... and even i still hve contact w my ex, the feeling hasn't change...
sometime i miss my ex and the time we spent together... each time i think like tht, i always feel regret n pain... when i told my friend about this, they easy answer: "Try find a new Girl" ( --_--") easily said then done... (U_U)
it's not easy to find girls that eu comfortable with...
i contact w some girls... but we juz friends... i donno what to do now...
but, sometime i like some girls tht i see... but not sure tht they the right once...
then i get to know a girl, she one of my campus-mate... we are normal friends... she juz join in this year... starting i don't feel anything different... but,when she hve a problem i juz listen n try to understand her situation... n try give her some advise...
then suddenly she started to hve feeling for me... (I didn't know bck then) one day, she confess to me... tht time i still don't what to ans... but wht she didn't know tht i also hve some feeling for her... (U_U) it's hard for me t explain....
and now... i got a feeling the she found someone... even if i want to get close to her, i know her heart now is w the person she pick... how heartbroken n pain i felt... atleast she happy w her life... but, this heartbroken felt like the same one the i broke w my ex... i don't know y...
The reason i like her it's cuz i feel comfortable w her... it's like i can tell her alot of things tht i keep in me...
but, it's ok... i wht i always feel everyday... tht's y i always walk alone... it's better for me...
posted at 12:02 AM
What I alwalys feel everyday... (U_U)
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
I feel like the stupidness guy... it's better for me to be alone... i always hurt myself if i don't... in every smile, laughter or happiness i show... there always something behind it... sadness, heartbroken, regret & disappointment... that what i feel everyday...